I sure do feel weird for the past few days. Its that feeling when I can't do anything for myself(?), either its drawing or studying, having silly conversations with friends, playing games etc. etc.
It feels like no matter what i do, i can't achieve anything worthwhile, like I'm going nowhere. I know its stupid, I know I just gotta work hard, do whats best for me, do what makes me happy, but I just can't shake off that unreasonable feeling.

The only things I can do are house chores, taking care of my mom and brother, cooking, cleaning up, going to the grocery store. Doing all these things makes me feel happier and valuable, but every evening, when I'm left alone, I just can't help myself but cry and hate on everything I create.

I have no idea how to get better whatsoever, I can only hope that one day something will magically change.